Wedding Daze

I'm getting married next year! This is very strange to me.  I always kind of assumed I would but now it's starting to be real.  I've been looking into costs and by god is it expensive! I never wanted the whole white wedding thing, but even so the guest list is getting bigger and bigger.  I reckon it will end up at about 30 people at the ceremony and and 80 people at the reception.  I swear if I could get married on-line I would.  It's a whole year away and I'm starting to get stressed about it already.  Not to mention I'm going to have to organise finding and renting a flat for me and Lee and moving into it and buying necessary furniture in a couple of months. 
I reckon we can get an engagement ring for c.£300, a wedding dress for c.£140, get my sister to do invitations, get my other sister to do some sort of gift bag for guests, do without the wedding list and get people to bring a bottle, hire a hall for about £400, get buffet catering for c£200 and £200 worth of drinks.  Is that everything? I sincerely doubt it and we're up to £1240 already. Wish me luck

Ambivalence

I confess that when I initially started this blog I think I thought it may be a combination of confessional, business opportunity and self esteem booster.  I think I thought that writing regularly would help me feel better in and about myself.  Instead it seems to have had the opposite effect.  I find the dribbling idiocy that comes out when I post banal.  I am not even interested in what I have to say, why should anyone else be?  I don't know if I really want what's inside my head to be outside for anyone to see. I haven't even told friends and family that I'm writing this. I suppose if I could be assured that no-one who has ever known about me in any capacity would read this, then maybe I could delve into more interesting topics. I think the problem is that you can't really write about your own life without writing about the people in it.  Since I haven't asked these people then what right do I have to talk about them? 
I think that I was hoping this could be a sounding board, an opportunity for me to discuss and get feedback on various issues in my life, but I find myself unwilling to discuss the personal in a public space.  Why do other bloggers do? How do they negotiate the ethics of writing a personal blog? Any answers gratefully received.